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This Is SO Cool

I zip through my life so fast, making plans, working hard to execute them, saving kittens, helping lost little old ladies, defending the defenseless and other super heroine activities, that I rarely get to take time off. I must plan vacations almost six months to a year in advance (when I get to take one) let alone actually enjoy any of my accomplishments. The dust has been flying fast around me for the last several months leading up to September 12, 2012. Now that the dust has settled for two seconds, I can exhale and appreciate the moment.

Yesterday, September 12, 2012, I was recognized as a Media Professional in the Real Time Media’s sixth edition of Who’s Who In Black Detroit. The book is the size of the White Pages and I’m on page 237 of the thick, beautiful book. Last night, as I listened to Cathy Nedd, Associate Publisher say that Who’s Who isn’t about the most popular or those who have name recognition, a small sense of pride began to pour over me. Then she spoke about how they want to put copies of Who’s Who In Black Detroit into the schools, so that young Black men and women can see people who look like them and came from where they are, who aren’t necessarily celebrities, yet do good things as leaders in business and in the community. Cathy Nedd was talking about all the people listed as honorees…including me.

I don’t get very excited about the things I do. It was a year ago this month that a full-page article was written about me in the Front Page Detroit, another Real Time Media publication. From where I sit, what I do is a lot of thankless work that most people will never know anything about. I don’t do it to impress people; I do it because it’s my dream – to get paid for using my talents so that I can leave corporate America, provide jobs for others and leave a legacy that Super Son and his children can be proud of. I don’t really get to think about how other people perceive what I do. There have been so many times when people minimized my work and talents, that I’ve started to exclude people’s opinions from my thought process. I’m aware that I will not be able to please the masses, no matter what I do, and I’m very well aware that many people perceive me a lot differently than I really am. Yesterday, I was also told that I’ve very humble about my accomplishments. I can honestly say that I don’t really know how to “brag“, although some may consider what I do in this blog “bragging“. I believe in doing the work.

When I got home last night, I unwrapped my copy of Who’s Who In Black Detroit, not knowing where I was in the book. I went to the Entrepreneurs section and didn’t see myself. I didn’t even think to look at the alphabetical listing by name in the back. I picked up the book and ruffled the pages with my thumb. As if I were a magician, the book stopped right on page 237 and there I was. I stopped, looked and said aloud, in my kitchen, occupied by no one else, “That’s me… This is SO cooool.” Then I called my mom. And she told me that she is proud of me. Then I went to bed.

I showed the book to some friends and acquaintances who congratulated me and spoke of how impressed they were with the quality of the book and how I had done a good job by being recognized in it. Two of my best friends called me to ask how the event went the night before. I was still not gloating about it at this point. Super Woman was thinking “now I need to step my game up so I can be worthy of recognition next year for the seventh edition“. But the little girl inside of me, who was always told she was too tall, too skinny, was a nerd and was only pretty without her glasses on, was smiling really big and saying “They are talking about me…This is SO cooool.

Today, I started to reflect on the people in my life who aren’t here anymore, but would really be proud of me, like my grandfathers, my aunts and my uncles. I started to think about the people in the media and entertainment industries who are no longer among the living like Don Cornelius and Chris Lighty, and left blueprints for me to follow and created space for me to thrive. I hope they are proud of me as well. In spite of the achievement, accomplishment, accolade, honor or whatever you choose to refer to it as, I still have much more work to do. I don’t do it for the acknowledgement, although it is very cool. I’m glad that someone thinks I’m worthy of acknowledging. For me, that’s what makes this SO cooool.

 

~ The flower doesn’t dream of the bee; the flower blooms and the bee comes. 

Written on September 13, 2012

Welcome the New Year

In 2010, God gave me a shot in the arm. When He did, He said to me, “Angela, I’m going to give you this shot. It will only hurt for a minute. When it’s over you will feel better, be successful and purpose realized.”

Fast forward to December 2011. I said to God “This minute of pain has been a whole year.” God then told me that His time is not my time. I’m very glad that time flies. I knew in 2010 I would face difficulties in preparation for prosperity. I just didn’t know it would last for the whole year. I went into the year making necessary changes to my life, my lifestyle, my mindset and I stayed positive. At each turn, there were difficulties in my life that many other people never even saw. In my growth I’ve become knowledgeable that in order to build something up, you first have to tear it down ~ that’s if you want it to be built right. You can’t constantly build on top of foundations that are not solid or structures that are not sound and expect to have success. In our pursuits, we often for that. We want everything to be easy and painless. We want everything to be pretty and perfect. We want our plans to be without flaws and our successes to be without any trials. That is not the reality of my life. I’m sure some of you also know what I mean.

This year has been the worst for me financially. Literally. I have over $92,000 in debt. I have no real assets to speak of and very few tangible items that I own free and clear at this point. I’m not exaggerating. This year has been that difficult for me. The only thing I own of any real value is The Brand and my creativity. Apparently, that’s all I needed to have this year. But there’s already a plan in place to change all of that in 2012 and to add financial stability to my newly rebuilt foundation. God knows that in order for me to truly appreciate what He has for me, He had to take some things away from me. He also made adjustments in my life to make room for something better. Every friend I lost was replaced by a better friend. Ever opportunity I was unable to take advantage of is being replaced by bigger and better opportunities. Every person who decided I wasn’t worth their time or acknowledgement was replaced by people in positions to help me achieve my goals.

The worst year financially, was one of the best businesswise. The year 2011 gave Super Woman recognition. People know who I am. Not thousands of people, but enough. It’s a really wonderful feeling when someone from New York or Atlanta says to me “I’ve heard of you” or “I’ve heard of The Goodie Bag“. It’s nice when the editor of a major publication asks why I didn’t submit my biography for their publication because I’m “doing amazing things”, and I can say it’s because I had more amazing things that I wanted to add to my biography first. I’ll be in that publication in 2012. So what if I didn’t make a lot of money in 2011. I did make a mark. That feels good.

The Super Team is also under construction for 2012. God is bringing people into my life that I can collaborate with outside of my current environment. He’s also blessing the people already on the Super Team in a way that I don’t even think they realize yet. I truly thank God that I’m in the company of very talented and ambitious people who are good at what they do. They inspire me to do what I do even better. It’s hard on me sometimes, having this extremely high level of ambition, but I observe the ones who came before me. I learn from their mistakes and successes. I consult with those who know the industry and I absorb their wisdom. I look for different and efficient ways of doing things that have been done before. And I try to find ways of doing what has never been done before. Why is it taking me so long to get to where I’m going? Because it’s a journey, a process and an experience worthy of hard work and dedication. I’m striving for longevity, not popularity.

I thank God for my tests, my challenges, my tragedies, my hurdles, my mountains and the tools He bestowed upon me to handle them all and evolve even more into the fabulous woman He has created me to be. He gave me many gifts. Some will get me into the room. Some will keep me there. Some will allow me the ability to build new rooms. I know WE’RE nowhere near done. This is just one step of many I have yet to take. I’m ready for what’s next. I welcome the New Year and a new day.

To my Super Team, we will all be driving Bentleys one day soon.

To my Super Fans, I appreciate your support and encouragement throughout this past year. I will always give you something fabulous to look forward to, be entertained by and educated through. You will not be disappointed by what comes from The Brand.

Have a Happy New Year!

See you in 2012!

Hi, I’m An Over Achiever

People are so proud of me for the local media coverage I received in the Michigan Front Page on September 21, 2011. I’m not as excited. I guess I’m still in the “building” phase of SWPP after 3 years of being in business, so that’s not a HUGE accomplishment to me. As far as I’m concerned, I can do better. In my (warped) mind, when I reach my 5th year business anniversary and I’ve been in Ebony, Essence, Uptown, Jones, Black Enterprise, Savoy and O Magazines, then I can get excited. Believing in self assessment, I’m aware that admitting I have a problem, is the first step to recovery.  
 
Hi, I’m Angela. And I’m an Over Achiever.
 
I’d like to be excited about media coverage I’d received over the last few months. Particularly since I waited and prayed for almost a year for that to happen. I’d also like to be excited about some of the opportunities that are now coming my way (tv scripts, more media coverage, media projects, book publishing deals), but I can’t because I’ve learned not to count my chickens before they hatch. I need contracts to be signed and deals to be solidified before I can exhale and feel that this is “real” and tangible. Until then I just can’t get excited.
 
As an Over Achiever, I’m often unable to enjoy my minor achievements…
 
I realize that part of my problem is that I live in the real world, where I know that people sometimes disappoint me. People don’t always exhibit a great amount of integrity in their dealings (personal or professional) and taking someone’s word isn’t always the best idea. I prefer to watch a person’s actions and see what they will actually do before I get excited by their offers. I once had a young lady ask me why I don’t talk more about what I’m doing on my blogs, Facebook, etc. I told her it is because some things are dependant upon other people doing their jobs. In the event someone else doesn’t do their job, I don’t want to be the one standing around looking stupid because it fell apart. I told her that I don’t talk too much about my projects publicly because I don’t want people with more power and money than I have to steal my intellectual property. I also don’t want people to think I’m full of crap if something doesn’t happen on the day, at the time and at the place I said it would, so I prefer to wait until it is complete before I share it with the public. It’s my way of protecting the integrity of The Brand. I don’t want a reputation for being unreliable, even when other people are.
 
 …and I have trust issues.
 
I’m glad that others are proud of me. I want to continue to make people proud by fulfilling my purpose, growing my business and becoming successful. I do recognize that I am my own worst critic. I’m my biggest competition. I’m my own kryptonite to some degree. One day, it will be more than enough. But that day isn’t today. It wasn’t on September 21, 2011 when the Michigan Front Page hit news stands, and it won’t be the day I complete and register my first television script either. The day when it will be more than enough will be the day I can exhale. When that day arrives I will be in the position to pay all my bills on time again, I will have a number of projects completed, a number of contracts signed, books will be selling nationally, I’ll be getting paid to do what I love to do and The Brand will be profitable enough that I can hire people, expand and take a much needed, all inclusive vacation to Barbados and not worry about Super Woman Productions and Publishing falling apart as a result.   
 
And did I mention that I’m always setting higher goals for myself?
 
Yes, I like the media coverage. I honestly do. But I’m just not that excited about it. Not yet. Not today. There’s still too much more I need to do before I can rest and say to myself “well done“. There are too many ideas that have yet to be developed. There are too many words that have yet to be written. There are too many dreams that I’ve yet to dream for me to be excited. There’s just too much yet to come. I hope you’ll join me, continue to encourage me and share me with others that you know. That’s what helps to make my current struggles worth it for me.  
 
 

Out With The Old, In With The New Year

Today is the last day of 2010. For me it’s not the end, but the beginning. The year 2010 brought about the realization of many of my dreams. The year 2011 will make those dreams greater. In 2010, I conquered, I learned, I grew. In 2011 all of those elements will build upon themselves and adhere my place in this world and in this industry. It hasn’t been easy. It’s been a lot of hard work. But hard work is not foreign to me at all. I’ve been “super” for longer than I even knew I was. It just took time for me to realize and embrace it. I’ve always known I had something that I was destined to do. I just had to pray for the guidance and be obedient in the steps.

In 2010, I lost some things as well. I lost a couple of friends and a couple of lovers. I also made certain sacrifices for the greater good. I made decisions and stood behind them. As a result, I can stand victorious because it was GOOD. I didn’t lose anything that God wanted me to have. Anything that was lost was quickly replaced with something better for me. Weeding my garden at times was difficult, but my garden is growing strong and it is beautiful. I shed some tears, got my feelings hurt; I even got stuck by some of the weeds in the process. But I dried my eyes, picked my head up, dusted my shoulders off and put my bandages on. Then I stepped back, looked at my life, and saw the beauty in it.  GOOD.  I even shocked a few people by reinventing myself (in appearance) mutiple times throughout the year.  If you were paying attention, you noticed,  if not, I’ve got more forthcoming for you to see.   

I’m blessed to have my Super Friends, my Super Family and my Super PR Rep. They are supportive of me. They believe in me and all my crazy. Even when we disagree, the love is still there. My Super Family doesn’t just consist of people who I’m related to by blood either. But I know they love me as if we were. All of these individuals are my constant in my sea of change; they are my yacht.

Then there are the men. There have been a few I really liked and maybe one I loved. But none of them were my Super Man. And it is GOOD. Any man who is no longer a part of my life on this day, was only temporary the day I met him to begin with. They either served their purpose or they failed to live up to their own potential. Some men didn’t think I was what they needed. Some men want to sit back and watch to see how successful I’ll become. I’d rather have someone who recognizes my worth and value before I’m wealthy.  Either way, it is GOOD.

I thank God for my perseverance, ambition & creativity.   These attributes have allowed me to withstand a great deal in my life.  They have also allowed me to reach the point where I am in realizing my dreams and will carry me further into those realizations as they evolve and grow beyond what they are today.  Under my Chinese zodiac, Year of the Tiger, my New Year doesn’t start until February 2, 2011.  The year 2010 was the year of a Golden Tiger.  The Chinese believe that during their New Year, a person becomes a year older.  That would make me three years old, I think.  Which explains why Chinese people have such longevity; in mind and body.  They also  believe that the year of a person’s birth is the primary factor in determining that person’s personality traits, physical and mental attributes, degree of success and happiness throughout his or her lifetime.  Needless to say, that in spite of the changes I went through, 2010 was a very good year for me.   The next Year of the Tiger will take place Feb 01, 2022 – Jan 21, 2023.  I’ll be 47 years old at that time (four years old under the Chinese zodiac) and I will be the Queen of All Media by that time.  That gives me something special to look forward to.

So, as everyone puts 2010 behind them, and sings “Auld Lang Syne” tonight, I will be reflecting on 2010 and celebrating its end as well, but with a different mindset.  It was a good year for me.  I’m glad to be done with the old, so that I can move forward into 2011 and all of the amazing opportunities it holds for me and the Super Woman Brand.  It was a good year.  But it’s not the end, it’s just the beginning.    

Happy New Year!

Smooches